21 years of excellence steps down with a rich legacy.....

The post is dedicated to the ONIDA COLOUR TV which occupied good portion of the family's heart and notable portion in the drawing rooms of homes we lived in.It was time for her to bid adieu from the TV stand who is little younger than her.Some discussions say that she had come before I was born.I could very well recall good memories of the past where we had disturbed her a lot.We installed her with a remote and replaced the remote several times.We showed our anger on her switches and sometimes even removed her off the plug without switching her main button.She extended her kind cooperation and bared with all our disturbances.We had many time fought for seeing channels and sometimes our fight ended up with a punch on the her main switch and the plug.Looking back I regret for nothing I cold do other than dropping some drops of tears.

Life now is some what tedious don't know why am feeling so but I feel its all doing what people repeatedly do and get rewarded and justify saying am busy enough.It seems legacies and excellence will no more be a part of any evaluation keys.Daily happenings have almost become habits and heart now cries for something definitely new to happen around.It seems I have loosed some magnitude of enthusiasm in the recent past.I am trying hard for a resume and I don't know when will it.yet to learn bare minimum clinched first full of concepts but the clash between mind and heart makes sure I don't sit in a place for more than ten minutes.I am now alone in my room with millions of thoughts about the past and future coming and going along.Not able to conclude on many issues am trying hard to call some friends to have a diversion.It is nearing an year since I came out of my college and stopped enjoying life to the core it was very light as a student and time now makes me recall some anxious moments last year.I am trying hard to achieve the same in a year or so.

Very recently I went to a good and quite a big shop near my home at coimbatore where I had been several times.I was just going through the shelves where some toy cars where kept.I picked the one which was a radio controlled toy and the shopkeeper a lady peeped and gently snatched the car and explained me that it is a radio controlled car and it has got a remote and it can go front/back and take a turn,she explained good and during the course of her explanations I recalled those days when I explained several people,shouting and utilizing max. energy with great enthusiasm with my team about the RC car which we made for a  project at IIT-M in 2010,2 years have passed and some music very similar to the one which played at the end of Unnaipol Oruvan Film, when mohanlal recalled the special day, played inside me.It was a great feeling and I was close to crying when I rode back home thinking all the events.

Gone are those days and legacies are still occupying core portion of hearts,its all about the friendship which got strengthened to the core after so many fights and reunions in all my activities I am now proud of having such friends and fortunate enough to do some projects which allowed way to good friendship.

Among the million thoughts tonight I am relieved now after thanking a person who had helped me a lot for some of my activities and I thanked him after 6 long months of disassociation I feel satisfied now and there is yet another person whom I had to thank and say Sorry hoping to do that also soon.

Its already 37 minutes post 10.00 PM and my mind is wavering either to go out for a walk or simply sleep to get ready for tomorrow's work.Nights have become not so welcoming to due to the geographical location of the room and the chennai climate.Let me conclude,I wish I be with same enthusiasm and courage when I had been years back.

Justified Plagiarism!!!!

It was some 4 days back my K790I with her artificial intelligence blocked all incoming calls and deliberately stopped to intimate me.I thought to get her a new keypad so that she can support me as she did earlier but was not able to since she crossed a definite age and authorized medics were afraid of opening her cover,which made me sad and close to mood off, as I badly required her support throughout the day and especially when I am alone in the nights.I got her keypad replaced in Richie street.The replacement made her shine like anything and she felt like the "Ms.Mathilda in the "The Necklace" tale".

Richie street is able to satisfy its customer by giving a product which is exactly matching the original one except for some GD&T issues and endurance.The time spent at those areas were mixture of emotions,since the entire area was trader dominant and the neighborhood didn't give good magnitude of positive indications,and I was tired enough to resist the deflection which my laptop hanging on my shoulder offered and tat too without eating.Life at this metropolitan has become so busy that people dont spend their time to troubleshoot problems and neither feel for the lack of perfection.Some word like stones and mud from the shopkeeper made me upset for some time then and I wasted close to 2 hours carrying 2kg load and stomach almost empty and without a drop of water molecule in my mouth. Anyway she is back with some changes although am not able to use her as before as she has become hard enough to use after some surgeries.

Life is now with repeated ups and downs with more downs than ups with happiness and mood offs consecutively.Program where I am a part off in my organization is nearing its first milestone and hence progress rate has increased to many folds and sometimes work upto late evenings, of course my work is not as great as my superiors do in terms of criticality but the same is also obligatory to complete.I am taking off this saturday with a plan to stay at my home and enjoy.

New plans for the future,Plans that went to the peak before some months and were suddenly minimised have again taken shape.I am yet to take some decisions and strategies for those but definitely require someone's support to exeute them in a proper channel and acheive the end result successfully.My room at my home reminds me of those days when I spent good time with my friends discussing about several issues and ideas in projects.Missing those days and trying hard to regain enthusiasm,faith and courage as She has resumed her support to me and nights will be as good as earlier.

Fast-track metallic strip shows 01/03/12 instead of 29/02/12...

My mind is still in this world, I was able to find that my watch is showing wrong date.It literally, spiritually and psychologically meant some hours/days and months my mind was just like the dummy pulley assembly  in a non AC vehicle,My intuition too intimated that time also is not so good. 

Gone are those days when I used to frequently post in WordPress with great zeal and enthusiasm now searching for the next word and the suitable connector.Some months are gone I still could not believe the end of college life missing my friends and the gang.Chennai is getting used and living in T Nagar gives enough feel of the metropolitan.Actual daily happenings are not planned and I hardly have any control over it.A long night walk in the Usman road all alone helps me recall some sweet memories of the past.There has been enough change in the mindset even some change at subconscious levels in the recent past.The heart remains unsatisfied even thou some good happenings pop up all of a sudden maintaing definite frequencies.It has been some weeks since I had a good sleep at Coimbatore it has now become a desire to spend some days there as before with family and friends.Some happiest moments of the past flash across which makes me silent,inert and take a deep breath and I am still happy to recall all the precious moments of the past in my so called active schedule.

Days are moving fast enough and I am very well aware that my present rate of interests in life will not give any fruitful results.I think  require a "Whip" from my master as like the "Whip" which the black beauty(horse) gets from her master in the Black beauty tale,but It happens so master(heart) is filed only with worries,feelings and nonsenses that makes it reluctant enough signal in the right direction.As already wrote and already knew my room is flooded with good books that would steer me in the right direction but I am yet to and not able to firmly hold the steering wheel(books) for more that five minutes.The mind is sharp enough that it signals me to put a steering wheel grip(develop interest) and hold it strongly(patience and commitment) but fails to actuate other organs.Hope there will be a recovery soon from all these.

Technologies are improving every minute and my attraction toward miniature products continues to be the same although I dont update myself about anything these days with all necessary infrastructure and it has become close to saying"water water everywhere and not a drop to drink" hope everything will be flushed with new joys,hopes and dreams and let the actual 01/03/12 be good day to resume works. 

Above paragraphs with many full stops and every sentence about completely different topics shows the height of lack lusture thoughts in the mind.Hoping forward to resume posting as before exploiting self awarded author licence.  

looking back and living the present.....

Life now has almost shifted to the third gear, things go as they intend to more than how I intended to.May be the later intent which I refer to would have left me in the worst part of my life(I am optimistic).Life at a metropolitan seems to be not matching those in films.Change is inevitable and adjusting to the change and adhering to its regulations some times become quite tedious.looking back I could very well visualize some days which had a breath taking effect on my psyche.Some times I do console my self that life is not a child's play and things have their own reasons for not performing in a manner as one desired to,But the crazy heart still dreams off of how life would be if an Edit feature is newly embodied to the human body like eyes,nose and tongue.But a question arises from which point to edit,If given an opportunity I would edit the day 1 of my existence in this earth.I am now determined to stop believing crazy logics which occupied core part of my brain and affected my performance.Living the present without thinking of the future makes me some times think I am not responsible but upon further probe the results said you are loosing your present for the future and hence you will loose the future when the present becomes past.

Technology inspirations are not attracting me these days as they did earlier,I personally feel to learn more and more about some domains but lack of that interest which i had earlier hinders the process.May be everything will be back with a bang If I get my "black beauty" back.(I meant my PC).I now strongly believe in my fast recovery from these infections may be I have stop looking back and live the second.

As an Indian citizen I feel ashamed of leading the same as usual life on Aug 15 2011,Selfishness in me made my mind inert that it failed to even intimate that I am yet to discharge my duties.At least it could have driven my hands and legs to act as if I am patriotic.May be watching more films like Rang de Basanti will kindle my patriotism but such films never say anything great about the freedom fighter who is being greatly honoured today.Highly satisfied about the freedom but little stupefied about the fighter whom I just mentioned.

Lack lusture performance by the Indian cricket team has made the fans to keep their fingers on their mouth.But I am personally satisfied about the Rahul Dravid's come back and his highly appreciable decisions.Indian cricket team should probably analyse the reasons behind this collective failure and take corrective actions by themselves and avoid listening to the media hype.

Hero Honda Go India Go now boasts only about the Hero and exploits ARR's voice to retain its brand value,trust and faith.I now fear whether the song gets massive hit and does not address the purpose for which it is composed.Anyway Hero moto corp is atleast 5 years now behind of their massive development probably Rahul was waiting for such an opportunity.

It is now high time to work hard and smart and set new goals without retrospecting on things which cannot be edited any more.I wish I do it and rely some what on the almighty for things beyond my coverage...

First Post.. but not the First ever....

After a long gap the day has finally come and I am here to publish my first post at blogger.The first impression boasts a lot about the design,graphics,good text editor and Google's tech support.But a little further probe makes me still wonder the Wordpress's longstanding heritage making it the largest blogging site.

What to say and what not to I just dont know but this is not my first post ever is the point that I would like to highlight.Looking back, lots of events come before my heart and soul like a power point presentation enabled with good custom animations.At this moment I would like to just thank the almighty for leaving behind such a legacy with million emotions.Missing my dear ones a lot.

Life has started in chennai with more career orientation,giving more exposure in the domain area and hands on experience in things which attracted my attention in textbooks.Really blessed to get such a exposure.Senior people with good magnitude of experience and knowledge are around and I personally felt that I am yet to start the ladder towards excellence.From the bottom of my heart some feelings,emotions come around and go frequently which makes me inert for a definite period of time daily.

Got some good books to read and I would definitely not say that I am running out of time but surely say that I am in need of a catalyst to increase my reaction towards them(books) and they(books) are all about the catalysts.My mind is sharp enough to identify this fact but is yet to receive an input to process further.Trying hard to get the input all these days and I believe I will.

Certain people have helped lot in some of my activities that gave me some appreciations I am ashamed of myself like the youngest brother in the "the tribute" story written by "thaghazhi siva sankara pillai".I have not got in touch with them and situations also some times hinder this process.Conveying my wholehearted thanks to them.

Some of my expectations gave me feedbacks of 99% success and  accounted the other probability.But unexpected twists happen rapidly and at this moment I understand the greatness of someone monitoring all my activities and I now fear to do things not in the list of positives.Anyway started with blogging again and in the days to come I intend to publish more posts that would definitely not make a common man feel boring,tired and exhausted;For I dont have the right to make a energy source,not inside my system extinguished.........